im seein lotta visions of livin without a family
banish me into lonlinees crawlin into a fantasty
can it be you abandoned me mad that u didnt plan for me
and handed me over but forgot to gimme my sanity
you couldnt even pack a bag right 
so many questions u never answered and im mad like
.... bitch... what the fuck was u thinkin about 
knock it up push it out give it to another house
cause who needs another mouth when the goverment will handle your fuck ups u u wanted out
i musta been burden u wasnt ready to hold
30 years of hurtin put your burden on my soul
and momma she would tell me that she loved me just the same
but you were my original sin you took away
any piece of innocence i ever couldve had
when u bit into that apple and threw away what u had

.... and i finish up my drink
slam it on the counter continue cause i can still think
i need you to be a memory a blurry rendition of everything you never said to me
... hurry up with my next one, keep my tab open i'll be back for the check some
time later... i got alot to do... i gotta write a couple more words
about you... listen

i remember askin momma why we didnt look alike
and i struggled with the drama
of bein the only daughter adopted with two brothers
that could climb they family tree, but for me i had to wonder
where i came from what u looked like who was i
did i have any other brothers and sisters did you try
to make your life better so we could live it together
or did you just hand me over and scribble down on the letter
of adoption your first and last name on the X
leave the court room and never look back i was a mess
growin up so confused bein mentally abused
by the false realities i created about you
but fuck it i needed somethin you left me with fuckin nothin
but the past that i created embarassed you never made it
to my first birth day or the other 29
but if anybody asks man i'm doin just fine