in the middle of it all here i go here i break
here i bend here i fold
hear my calls fear my god really
eyes in the sky sing lullabies with me
snooze in confusion move into madness
who in they right minds wanna get past it
lock but i cracked it thought that i had this
thought in my mind that would make me some magic
get with it elevate the vision
set it on the blackboard seein if they listen
take notes and float the right words and know the night blurs
the light when i burn
the turn of my page the book that i wrote
the lines that i made the times that i spoke
the hope that i lost the dreams that i beat
the way my brain just loops and repeats


back in the front
first place last
flip on my future and dip to my past
one song starts and another one finish
one gets a pause and one gets a listen
put em in the hall when they all come visit
locked in my box til my repeat finish

they walk down the hallway rattlin the cage
point at my IV and laugh in my face
hate what they made but they made me a monster
watch as i crumble you be the sponsor
you be the flag that i wear on my back
when i lay on the bed with my hands on the straps
tap on the railing fingertip drum
song of acceptance ya'll never done
...admitted cover up my vision
...put me in the backroom no body can visit
and they never listen when they label you insane
man i got a scarlet letter embedded into my brain
no better than when i came i blame it on all the pills
i blame it on all the therapy heresy if you will
.... kill time i find my own life
repeats in my mind released from my fight

here i am again with the metal in my hand
and a needle in my skin deliverin all the plans
deliberate when i laugh the melody of the madness
cast as a bastard lead to the pasture
no hope for those with no soul
i pray for my self with words i dont know
i cling to my dream i sigh when i breathe
i try to be free i lie in these sheets
not livin.... hopin for a vision
gimme something different i could use an intermission
i know the road that i chose
has lead to my fate behind the locked doors
i walk on all fours i crawl on my floor
i pause when i reach the spot when i know
i fold to they will i move they beat
they watch as my brain just loops and repeats